Asked and Answered

If you never ask, the answer is always no.

Zig Ziglar? Bob Ong? Some random brilliant person always comes up with this stuff. You can’t seem to deny such things as truths of the universe. Verily, that’s what makes them quotable quotes. There’s just something that has you believing.

Soon enough I find myself overanalyzing our every little conversation, noting her body language and even the little nuances of her texts and approaching the council for (blind-leading-the-blind but nevertheless necessary confidence-building) advice. There’s really little else to do. So coming to the conclusion that the go signal has been given, and just because it’s Wednesday and that new movie that just came out is supposed to be good and because the mantra has me believing –

Sorry, I’m busy.

Oh universe, you’ve let me down once again.

And while utterly crushed, there’s still a certain sense of…hmm just a momentary setback perhaps? On the strength of the initial build up, there is the belief that maybe she really is busy. You know, just this one time. So maybe next time I can try again. And soon enough, half-day naman, plus it’s Christmas, and on Christmas, you tell the truth, and after all if you never ask…

Sige, let’s see later…

Yes, on Christmas, you receive gifts just because and at that moment, I realize what a happy holiday it really is. All on the sheer strength of mere hope or expectancy.

Then again, the moment is but fleeting. And we know how this stuff is universal truth. Because between now and later,

Uy, something came up…

And I can’t really fault her for that now can I. I just bought into the idea. And while what I hoped for never came to fruition, well, even the law finds nothing wrong with that. Since, I don’t particularly believe it was sale of false hope at least. At the time.

And soon enough, I find myself thinking that it’s always something. And all that’s left is to find out if I should stop asking. And so I do.

Yes. I’m sorry.

After all, if you never ask…well there’s your answer.